sorry ive havent been on lately

ok sorry for not posting anything lately its been pretty hecktic and plus i just had the halloween dance yestarday. OMG it was soo fun i was dancing with soo many guys it was pretty epic. i got to dnace with my best friends emily <33 and amber and sophie. and my friend gabe... she went ape, cause shes the smarty pants of our grade and she was having such a good time. like she did stuff u wouldnt think she would do.
And im getting majorly piled on the homework like my science teacher Ms.Mach hates me so like everyday i get detentions for absolutely nothin (honestly) like i look over to my friend miki and smile and then she says ' darby u've got detention" im like wow.
but thats not all that happened you know my ex Aaron well at the dance while he was dancing with girls (one main girl)((not really me) and WOULDNT stop staring at me, im like wow. like i still like him but i dont plan on going out with him again. and then i think my friend (who likes him) is trying to get close to me to get close to Aaron so it feels like im getting used even tho she said she just liked him not want to go out with him but thats what it feels like. so i dont know and plus i still like him like a big brother and like like him but yeah.

k well thats basicly it well PEACE!!<3333

music quiz

ok peeps i saw this on emily's profile and i thought i should try this..

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle
.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
.3. You must write that song name down{{my comments are in italics!}}


If someone says "Is this Okay?" You say:StellerIncubus {{Hehe It fits :)}}

How would you describe yourself?wide open spaces, dixie chicks {{ i guess this mean i have an open mind }}

What do you like in a guy/girl? you cant always get what you want, rolling stones{{ cool!! i think that my bf cant always have what he wants in this relationship}}

How do you feel today?superman, eric clapton{{ cool !! IM SUPERMAN!!}}

What's your life purpose? last song, theory of a dead man{{ i guess this means i have to life my life until its all gone}}

What do your friends think of you?Moondance, van morrison {{ they always think im full of surprises}}

What do your parents think of you? we're soo beyond this, reason{{ my parents are always wanting me to grow up and act more mature}}

What do you often think about?somewhere i belong , linkin park {{ perfect!! im always wondering wuts the right choice for me .. and i need to take chances and understand i belong somewhere}}

What do you think about the person you like? dirty little secrets, all american rejects{{ i can always keep my secrets with aaron}}

What is your life's story? i go blind , hootie and the blow fish{{ hahaha hootie and the blow fish.. thats a funny name :P [ im actracted to guys i guess]}}

What do you want to be when you grow up? the little things, colbie callait{{ ummm surree}}

What will you dance to at your wedding?disturbia, rihanna{{ oh yeah }}

What will they play at your funeral? kiss my country ass, rodney atkins{{ haha see ya later peoples when im gone}}

What is your biggest fear?best i ever had, state of shock{{ im affraid of losing sumthin important to me}}

what is your biggest secret? livin la vida loca, puss and boots and DONKEY!{{ .... ummm some one explain please}}

What do you think of your friends? worth dying for , rise against{{ of course they are worth dying for they are my friends}}

What is your future going to be like? yellow, coldplay{{ umm does this mean im gonna only see yellow from now on??}}

What do you see in the person you like?Talk dirty to me, poison{{ oooo yeah :P:P u can always tlk dirty to me :P:P HAHA}}

What will the song be for you and your spouse?animals, nickel back{{ umm .... should i be scared??}}

Ciaras party

ok ... amber and emily and all my other friends ar trying to anrange a party on halloween at ciaras moms house so im really hoping it works cause if it doesnt... ill be all alone:(

im soo comfused

ok,
now with me and aaron "trying" to be friends.( not really working) but anyways. he wants to be my friend but hes acting llike a shit head and everything. but hes telling all my friends that he wants to be my friend. "pfftt" if he wants to be my friend then he has to stop being a ass and shunning me. but today it seemed like he wanted to talk to me so i looked at him and he immidiately looks away so im like wtf?? soon i feel like im just gonna have to give up cause i really miss being around him but hes being a ass .. so im not sure ill still try for about a week more.. but after that... im done

liking guys.... and still liking my Ex

Ok i know that most people still like their Ex after they break up... but I like my Ex bf Aaron but not in that way.When i tryed to break up with him i was trying to be really sweet about it to him ... but in return i got!
"I knew it"
"u know wut fuck this"
later on i tryed texting him
" go fuckin date keagan, or duncan or brad. i dont wanna fuckin tlk."
i still tryed to tlk to him and everything but he wasnt bugding
so now at school he's trying to ignore me and avoid me and he know that every one of my friends took his side on the break up and he feels sry about that and everything but i still hate him for swearing at me for me trying to brake up with him and nicely as i could... *( hes very sensetive that way)*. and im not sure if i like another guy becuase i do but then im not sure and i just want to be friends with him... but then i never did get over aaron i just had to do wut i had to do before our (some wut of a friendship is) friendsship before it went crazy. so i actually did the right thing and everyone hates me for it... so yeah everytime at school im always wishing i was with him but when ever i am with him... i feel like im trapped and cant get away from him.
well thats all for now... PEACE!

not fitting in

hey peeps,

it feels like in my house that my parents are trying to push my right out the door, so now im feeling soo unluved. They keep on yelling and yellng at me and telling me to change or be different.. sometimes i just want to scream at them saying " this is who i am, i will not change for u or anyone else". but its not only at home where i feel like im getting treated like shit. It's also at school. cause just resently i broke u with my Bf and everyone is taking his side and thinks he should deserve better. So now they think im the bitch when i had to wut i had to do. cause is it a relationship if u dont luv him anymore??? and hes one of those guys where he can SOO tell when sumthin is up. So at school my (used to be) Best friend started shunning me and calling me a bitch and everything.. and she almost had everyone else think that too. So my ex found out that she was being a total bitch to me so he came up to me and appoligized and thought i didnt deserve it. I think its cool for him doing that but i still hate him for swearing at me and telling me to fuck off and go find another bf. altho we're cool... im not really gonna forgive him for that.